the days i wish it would never come,
the nights i wish it has no dawns,
my life i wish would make more sense,
and i wish i would make more sense.

not sure these thoughts run through your mind,
but they are always lingering on mines,
how i want to cut open my chest,
let go of the weight that's pulling my rest.

and puff! i want to be gone,
erased from the world,
erased from every memory that holds,
any sign of my existence.

it is suffocating whatever i am feeling,
tears don't heal the scars carved in,
even poetry now is merely a pain,
the words have i none to claim.

I haven't the courage in me to live,
I haven't the wits to even survive,
then what have i to deserve this life,
when i could be dancing among the stars at night?

18:51~