oh i feel it deep down in me,
this bizarre life m pretending to live,
always a dreamer with hopes i'd be,
nothing in reality ever i'd achieve.
watching myself only lose my mind,
and over a zillion times i repeat,
those things i try to leave behind,
i am no fool to life's cruelty.
i feel caged and weak and broken inside,
crying for freedom m never to taste,
and still i believe with a crazy heart,
much courage have i to still go on.
oh but m losing it somehow now,
i am merely a shadow of me,
looking for a tomorrow within today,

and when it isn't better in any way,
i blame myself for believing the lies,
that i let me build in my messed up head.
yet i am a warrior, truly fierce,
I’ll ride on my feelings and cling to my beliefs,
this pretentious life,
let me just live it.