winter warmth

Winter came when I met you,
bringing with it so much cold i never knew,
it couldn't hurt me so much as it should,
because I melted at the very sight of you.
a warm heart never feels the chill,
you had mine warmed till the end of it,
and the story of us began to unfold,
it doesn't really matter how it will end,
as long as we are in every chapter of it,
we will keep filling the pages with warmth.
When winter ends and spring begins,
when new leaves and shoots spring up,
so will we and we will grow apart,
but the winter warmth shall run in our bloods,
the memories frozen in some part of us,
You are the blue and the hazy one,
the one that will keep me going in times unknown,
i hope for another winter to come,
and i hope it brings you along.

Darlin' you ought to believe me,
however crazy I may sound to be,
But what I saw in my horrid dream,
Shook all of me and the world around,
Merely a dream and I let it go,
Until the reality shook before me,
And flashed the cards for me to see,
My dreams come alive in the day,
What do I make of this, I say.
What about the dead that come to me?
What about the house I keep seeing?
And the woman that follows me?
They haunt me from time to time,
And will they ever come alive?

~22:17~

heart on fire

My heart is on fire,
It burns within,
I tell you, I am no liar,
From where I have been,
From what I have seen,
My skin is thinning,
the soul is weakening,
It may be a day or so,
until i will say no more,
and you will hear me no more,
but I give you today,
a chance to hear me out,
my burning heart needs hearing,
before the fire burns out.
Oh it hurts so much,
I am guilty and tired,
should my time come soon,
I'll gladly say my last prayers,
should the fire burn out,
and my soul should too,
but i will thank you,
for the ear you've lend,
When in ashes i shall be grateful,
for once the heart on fire,
that someone paid heed to.

For the love i have for you

if you want to meet somebody,
who will love you unconditionally,
she will bare her heart out,
for she has a heart so big,
she will fill you up with happiness,
oh she has so much to give.
and if you ask me who she is,
i will ask you if are worthy of her,
if you are as willing to love,
if you are gonna break her heart.

She will speak words a little harsh,
for she speaks out her unruly mind,
in spite of her spitefulness,
you should know best not to miss,
the kindness she hides beneath.
what's more prettier than her, i ask?
She has the heart to only love,
so pure, i say, she's bewitched me,
and everybody else who opens out to her.

And oh my, her love for animals,
i'll tell you she's a queen at heart,
and to just think of her,
leaves me smiling proud and happy,
to have a friend who is true at heart,
i wish her more of all she's got,
believe me, she deserves it all...

~14:19
for dechen yangzo

the sea

the sea called upon me,
and said as much as i could see,
and she smelled exactly like i hoped,
i could taste her saltiness as i breathe in,
and as she lapped on the sands,
and wet my feet so gently,
i felt the happiness she kindly gave me.
so blue, so vast and so very deep,
she reminded me of how pretty life can be,

as she gave me answers i would never have found.
but the sand being its prettiest yellow,
and the water gleaming in dazzling blue,
i felt how she was all i wanna see,
and seeing her, was i the happy happy me! :)))

~00:35 mood strikes me!! :D ~

oh i feel it deep down in me,
this bizarre life m pretending to live,
always a dreamer with hopes i'd be,
nothing in reality ever i'd achieve.
watching myself only lose my mind,
and over a zillion times i repeat,
those things i try to leave behind,
i am no fool to life's cruelty.
i feel caged and weak and broken inside,
crying for freedom m never to taste,
and still i believe with a crazy heart,
much courage have i to still go on.
oh but m losing it somehow now,
i am merely a shadow of me,
looking for a tomorrow within today,

and when it isn't better in any way,
i blame myself for believing the lies,
that i let me build in my messed up head.
yet i am a warrior, truly fierce,
I’ll ride on my feelings and cling to my beliefs,
this pretentious life,
let me just live it.

she

and as she lay upon the sheets of hope,
silent sobs escaped her throat,
tears just ran down her pretty face,
she cared not of the mess she made.

closed her eyes in vain she tried,
to shut off the images that came blurring by,
those happy days when laughter ruled,
and sadness was just a noun she knew.

she felt how the coldness embraced her,
while the hurt throb and slit her apart,
her disillusioned mind gave nothing away,
and in truth she lost everything.

and now she clung to her only hope,
be this a dream she will awake to,
let laughter rule her only world,
yet she knew, oh yes she knew...

~23:18 *** 09.02.2015~